Calmly, respectfully, faithfully, think of God's love. He created you for life filled with hope, joy and truth. This starts with our free choices. Love does not manipulate and God is love. The personal choice is incredibly important. Why did he put the one tree in the garden of Eden? All of us would be still in the garden, had he not, but it would have been as like puppets.
God love us too much to remove our choice to love Him. You don't have to love Him, but you should. His love is demonstrated in innumerable terms, beginning with the death of Christ on the cross. Can you think on these things? It will clear your mind and settle your heart. Hallelujah!
Romans 5:8 (MSG)
8 But God put his love on the line for us by offering his Son in sacrificial death while we were of no use whatever to him.